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October 06, 2005
long messages for short attention spans..i have a real job you know.
dear Mr rakus.
If I understood everything right, you are something what we call in Germany a KUMMERKASTEN. that means that i can ask you if i have any problems. so i`m writing to you now. because i`ve got the biggest problem that I`ve ever had. Please excuse my english, i think it`s not the best.
The story is about my girlfriend, or better to say my ex-girlfriend. But you have to know that i still love her more than i ever loved a person and i`ve already had a few girlfriends. i was together with her for nearly exactly 1 year and four months. i`m sure that this was the best time i ever had, except from the last weeks.
The story is so long and i don`t know where to begin. I think it`s very suitable to start with bsf. They are my absolute favourite band and i really love them. As i came together, Lena did not know them. But she liked rock music and by the time she liked boysetsfire more and more and they became what we called `our`band. And UNSPOKEN REQUEST became and to me still is OUR SONG!!! We also went together to a bsf gig, that was in frankfurt. So listening to bsf will always make me remember this wonderfull girl. Everytime i hear them and mostly Unspoken Request i begin to cry like a small boy and can`t stop it. it`s so bad. I am afraid of myself i don`t know if i can manage this situation. i still love this girl so much!
ouh, you don`t know how i lost her: Ok. We had the best time that a couple could have for at least 1 year and two month. i really did everything for her. I drove her around, i paid for the cinema and when we were out, i did everything i could everything! And she did also. it was such a wonderfull time i cannot describe it by words. but i think a person who has ever been really in love knows what i mean.
but by the time, it baegan i think 2 months ago, the situation changed. she stopped to give me what i call `items of love`. she did not want to kiss me any more and so on. i talked to her about it and she realised it but she said she did not know where it came from. I think that i`ve lost her to a group of persons which she admires like gods. a few guys who seem to be cool and who are admired just for being themselves. i hate them! and she wants to be a part of this group. i think i am not longer her perfect boyfriend. she wants to have another one. she says that this is not true but i think she lies to me. she says that she still likes me and wants to be a friend of mine, but i am afraid of meeting her. surely i will cry and i know that if i see her with one of those guys i will knock him down or something. everybody say that i should try to forget her, but this is really impossible, our relationship was to strong and there are two many things that remember me of her.
So my question to you is: how can i manage this situation, how can i have a normal relationship to her and how can i protect her from these suckers? i am so afraid that in the near future one of them will do her bad things. you know what i mean. because these persons don`t care about girls.
i hope to get a helping answer from you. i could tell you much more about her, those fuckers, me and everything else. but i think this would be too much for that frame! THANK YOU!!!
Christoph
dearest christoph...thank you for taking the time to write me, i appreciate it. ok.....long letters keep pouring in...but I definently feel your pain..... i probably would just give her the distance that she wants and let her go off and do her own thing...this didn't work for me ....when i was destroyed once, but you're just going to make her angry if you persist in hanging out all the time and trying to get back together with her. It will just make her angry to feel so much pressure-that what i'm saying..hell hopefully she will relize that she is wrong, and that all those guys should get the fuck kicked out of them...(we'll get to that).....so just wait....as for those guys ..fuck them make it known that their dicks...it might make her mad....but at least your disrespecting them (cause they deserve it) and not her. all in all I would get wasted for two years..thats what I did..........write back if ya need a little more help....
rev. chris rakus----so serious.
my beer is almost done.,
Posted by Rev. Chris Rakus at October 6, 2005 05:58 PM
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Hey Rev!
What heaven sent fucker;-) you are...
this is the only and right answer to give...even though u don't know the whole problem, you faced it completely, man! If you ask me, suckers are not worth to be vengeful in anyway... they're just penalised enough with their status as suckers, aren't they... it's always the easy way to not subdue the pain...be strong now, and in hope all little angels will be free from all of their poisons! christoph, maybe just live your own life and walk your own way, nobody else can!
yours pb
Posted by: Pussyblaster at November 21, 2005 06:32 PM